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That's the dirt worst

Error_3113 wrote:Same also (because I'm in high school, child's play compared to the rest of you XD) not next year though...

But I'm in College.
So its the same as High School?

Still....either way...those dates suck.

whoops, I meant "however", not "because". sorry bout that

Turned out that there was no conspiracy at all. Now I'm depressed.

ENIHCAMBUS wrote:Turned out that there was no conspiracy at all. Now I'm depressed. :(

because you have realized you were paranoid?

Sublevel 102 wrote:

ENIHCAMBUS wrote:Turned out that there was no conspiracy at all. Now I'm depressed.

because you have realized you were paranoid?

Of course I'm paranoid. I know what to do to feel more better, but I cannot, there's no time for anything! I feel enclosed in a box!

My family is not taking me anywhere, and they then complain about that to me!

I need to free my mind...

Go for a walk at night.

It's immensely freeing to walk at night, in a world where so much activity takes place by day

Good Advice!

Error_3113 wrote:Go for a walk at night.

I did that yesterday. Night, rain, silence...

I was alone.

and I wonder why I didn't meet group of people who wants to "borrow" my phone! XD

My greatest problem was that I could never stand a great change in my life, and the main reason of that is that I never tried to do one by myself. Therefore, if I can't make myself a great change, I wouldn't stand one that the life-self mades.

I actualy did such changes, but I feel like I want more, also, everytime my paranoia increases then, basically because everytime I take step further, those damn signs start to appear, and those damn numbers, and then I restain myself believing a fake conspiracy and then ending paranoid.

Now that I think about it, there's indeed a conspiracy, but everytime I figure out something or I find such signs, I got all that bullshit paranoid and hide in my hole. I'm going to confront it, if something is going to happen, if it even happens, I'll take that I deserved it.

Remember October 15th? When I posted in my signature that danger level shit? If I were to take such state again, it should be 37% now, but I not taking that into count now, so 0%.

Today I taken a step further, but I still not seen the results. Tomorrow I'll take them even further. Further more in the, lets say, the rest of my life I think, after all, is everything about taking steps further into the right direction, to finally accomplish our dreams and being happy.